Life is Good

What can I say? The sun is shinning, it's 78 degrees in Wheaton, it's Friday, and I'm done with classes for the week. Life truly is good.

I've been blessed, so blessed. Just walking around campus right now, seeing so many people I would call at least acquaintances, if not friends, interacting with so many.

Last year I felt so alone, so confused. I was tormented between faith and spirituality, trying desperately to be in control, to break free of my "sin," to find a home at Wheaton after transferring, and to be at peace in my heart.

I just couldn't do it while still hating myself and trying to change what I was.

God works in powerful and mysterious ways. Last evening I went up to Andersonville to meet those from Soulforce (seen here http://www.soulforce.org/ ), a organization promoting equal treatment for LGBTQ students of religious based institutions. Their Equality Ride was stopping in the Wheaton area. Getting to meet them, hear their passion for equality, and then also hang out with old and new friends from OneWheaton was such a blessing. To be with people that understood me, respected me, and loved me for who I was, not matter what, that was the greatest blessing. Of course I wished the night would have never ended.

Even today, getting to see SoulForce and OneWheaton on campus here (even though the Wheaton administration has kept them rigidly controlled), I am encouraged.

Life truly does get better, just look at me a year ago. God truly is in control and He has beautiful plans beyond what we can image. I know He is taking these years at Wheaton to form me into the man He always wanted me to be. Being part of a historic moment at Wheaton, being on the front lines, and seeing the amazing small steps the college is taking is all so encouraging. Life truly is good, and I cannot wait to see what the future holds. As our speaker in chapel Amena Brown ( http://amenabrown.com/ ), shared in Chapel this morning, God desires us to come to Him and trust Him with our futures, with the unknown. It is in that tension and uncertainty that we truly find God. This summer I placed my bets and went all in, and I haven't looked back since. I am all in for God as myself, a gay man who loves Jesus and the man God made Him to be. It will be a long hard road, but that is what makes life great. After all, life certainly is a journey! :)